It's 7.13am now, and Im sitting on my bed, updating this blog, while listening to The Platters on my ipod speaker..
Believe it or not, Im still jet-lagging from my trip to New York a couple of weeks ago.. I always have the worse jet-lags ever.. Like when I was studying in the UK, I'll come back quite often for winter , easter & summer breaks.. We had 1 month breaks during winter & easter, and I didnt sleep properly for the whole month! But it was easy for me to re-adjust myself when I returned to the UK :)
So it was worse when it comes to New York as the time difference is 24hours!
Anyhoo.. if you guys saw my facebook profile, you guys should know that my friend from primary school, Nurul Huda, uploaded some pretty embarrassing pictures of us when we were young..LOL!
Thanx a lot Nurul! I noticed that in most of the pics, I wasnt smiling like now.. I guess I was really self-conscious bout my teeth back then.. lol.. but thanx to 2 years of suffering with braces, and 4 teeth being pulled out.. I am now more comfortable with showing my teeth when I smile.. :D
Here are a couple of pictures that Nurul uploaded:~
- This is Berbalas Pantun Team, Im the 1st one standing from the left. We were the Zone 3 Champions and the Petaling District Champions!! This was taken after we won the finals at the District Level :) (I was soooo thin back then.. LOL)

- SK Seafield's netball team.. I was the Goal Shooter.. was still playing the same position in Uni.. :)

- With Kelvin Wong, Kelvin Lim, Chee Yim & Nurul at Nurul's Raya Open House.. haha!

I think I was very self-conscious.. even till now.. maybe in a different way.. my best friends and family know what I am self-conscious about, coz for some reason, In Malaysia.. it makes me feel a little bit like a freak.. in the UK, I felt more comfortable, coz people dont stare when you hv big cup size, but in Msia.. omg.. some of the responses I get were really humiliating.. and sometimes they do make me cry.. whenever I complain about them to my mum, she will say that it was because I was wearing tight-fitting clothes.. but the thing is.. even when I wear baju kurung, random people will still stare and give some humiliating remarks.. This is why Im always self-conscious and I never like to walk alone by myself in Msia.. coz even when I walk with my friends, they'll do the same thing..
Like yesterday, for the 1st time in 3 years (coz I was in the UK), I went to Pasar Ramadhan in SS18 with Ibrahim (a friend from school).. I was wearing jeans, a lose baby-T with cardigan..
u see.. a cardigan! who wears cardigan when they go to Pasar Ramadhan??.. I do! coz people are fasting and I dont want to be stared at.. but still.. guys were pointing.. and believe it or not.. a man, who was also staring, juz walked pass me and whispered something in my ear which I prefer not to write here.. I mean.. I was walking with Ibrahim but still these things happened.. They even do it when Im walking with my parents..
Can you guys blame me for being self-conscious??
Sometimes I even feel nervous when I want to buy food in a fast-food joint like McD or KFC..
haha.. weird but yeah..
Well, my mama said I should be thankful to Allah for everything that was given to me.. and with my whole heart Im so thankful and I am totally blessed.. no doubt! I wouldnt want to change anything about myself coz Allah made me perfect the way I am.. Even my best friends said that Im lucky.. but I guess I just wish that the mentality of some of the Malaysians (especially the malays) could be changed..
just let me be~
Gosh.. I dont know why I was talking bout that.. haha.. quite embarrassing!
Moving on~
On Wednesday my best friends and the boyfriends went out for dinner (buka puasa) at Eden Restaurant on Jalan Raja Chulan..
As usual.. everytime we get together.. it will be a fiesta on its own.. us girls talk a lot when we see each other.. not only that.. we talk a lot, loudly, and everyone talks at the same time!! hahaha.. juz imagine.. but the weird thing is that.. everyone heard each other, and at the end of it.. we were all satisfied coz we got to say what we wanted.. LOL!!!
The food was good.. and like always.. loadssss of pictures were taken.. :)
Here are some:









There you go, it took me awhile to upload these pics and I accidentally dozed off.. LOL..
again, blame it on the jet-lag..
It is now 2.48pm.. and this post will end right..... here!
xoxo
Elina